ianphanes's Journal

Ian Phanes
5 February 1966
I live betwixt and between...in almost everything. I am an intellectual and a mystic and a passionate friend. I love formal ritual and spontaneous magic and silent contemplation. I am feminine and masculine and mercurial.

I am complicated and charismatic. I'm strong-willed and somewhat tightly wound, but fairly self-aware, so I moderate myself pretty well. My gender expression varies, but is always something between conventional masculinity and femininity...call it androgynous, for lack of a better term.

I read constantly. Fantasy fiction mixed with scholarly tomes mixed with how-to books on magic. I'm proud to be a book geek. Some of my favorite authors include:
    Lois McMaster Bujold
    Charles de Lint
    John Michael Greer
    Dion Fortune
    Guy Gavriel Kay
    Katherine Kurtz
    Mercedes Lackey
    Ursula K. LeGuin
    S.M. Stirling

My current spiritual paths are:
    third gender transperson (since birth)
    Witchcraft: ContraryWise Craft & Wheel-Dancing (since 1987)
    Christianity: The Episcopal Church USA (since 2000)
    polytheistic astrological magic (since 2015)
    The reality, of course, is more complex and dynamic than a list of affiliations can possibly imply.
      "Do I contradict myself?
      Very well then I contradict myself,
      (I am large, I contain multitudes.)"
      --Walt Whitman

    I am a scholar by nature. I read translations of ancient Hermetic texts or medieval Arabic astrology for fun. I went back to school for a degree in socio-cultural anthropology when I was thirty.

    On the other hand, I am highly experimental in my approach to magic and religion, though I'm not eclectic, in the sense that word is usually used. I tend to extensive research and perform experiments, then develop a new synthesis that works for me...and sometimes for others as well. I'm very much a system-builder...but systems that continually grow and change.

    I've taught the Craft for a couple of decades now, and have mentored individuals on a range of magical and/or spiritual paths.

    Please comment! I put these things up for feedback. Thoughtful criticism is a gift, and will be appreciated as such.

    P.S.: You're welcome to befriend me if you want to follow my metaphysical musings. However, I won't befriend you back unless I know you well enough to share some of my emotional journey. I am much more likely to befriend you if you comment. (If I know you in real life, just let me know who you are, and I'll befriend you.)

    P.P.S.: I erase posts about my day-to-day life after a few weeks. If the topic is ephemeral, the post will be as well. This is to encourage people who are new to my journal to go back through previous entries and comment on them.