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    Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
    8:30 am
    Brotherhood rituals
    I went to Fire Dance this weekend.  gryphon77 wrote up a nice reflection on it.

    When discussing the possibility of joining with some of the brothers over potluck, one of them asked the reasonable question: "how many of their rituals have I attended?"  I couldn't answer at the time, but here is the list:

    1. Quintessence 2007

    2. Fire Dance

    3. Soul Song

    4. Ecstasis

    5. Fire Dance 2008

    6. Spirit Song 2009

    7. Fire Dance

    8. Apotheosis

    9. Ecstasis

    10. Shadow Dance 2010

    11. Quintessence 2011

    12. Fire Dance

    13. Apotheosis

    14. Ecstasis

    15. Ecstasis 2013

    16. Ecstasis 2014

    17. Quintessence Retreat 2015

    Given that Fire Dance is dedicated to the Lover, it's not a coincidence that that is the one ritual I've attended every year.  And this year, I didn't fall over!  At Fire Dance 07, I fell over because I was refusing to let Dionysos possess me, as I was not certain if it was appropriate for non-ritualist to allow possession at the BotP rituals.  At Fire Dance 08, I fell over after Dionysos left me at the end of the dancing.  This year, he and I seem to have handled it a bit better.  It was still an intense experience for me, but I didn't fall over.  :)

    I'm going to try to make it up more often this year, so I have a better sense of things.  The next one is Apotheosis, on 11 July.

    Edited to add:  I'm going to continue to use this entry as my log for BotP ritual attendance.
    Wednesday, May 8th, 2013
    3:22 pm
    I am thinking about worlds, in the sense of the various layers of reality that make up the cosmos.

    For years, I've used a four world model derived from Kabala, which derived from Neo-Patonism, but using the following symbolism:

    • Stellar

    • Solar

    • Lunar

    • Mundane

    But I'm thinking of more layers...the list I came up with this morning was:

    • Womb (infinite space, primal darkness)

    • Stars

    • Sun

    • Moon

    • Earth

    • Underworld

    • Titanic (primal powers)

    I'd like more parallel language to communicate this, and I'm not sure if that list even makes sense to anyone outside of my brain.

    Friday, May 3rd, 2013
    2:52 pm
    Pagans in C-U
    Smile Politely has completed their "Pagans in C-U" articles with a profile piece on me:

    Part 2 was about Beads N Botanicals:

    Part 1 was a general intro to local paganism:
    Friday, March 22nd, 2013
    1:47 pm
    A fellow non-conventionally-gender person posted something on its blog, and two people responded.  In one, I find the phrase "ALL of us, Men and Women" and in the other "both genders".  Both are very well meaning comments.  But I still want to shake them.  As it is not my blog and the commenters are not individuals that I have interacted with in the past, I did not reply there.  So I'm bitching here.  Please, people, learn to count higher than two.  In everything.

    Current Mood: frustrated
    Wednesday, February 27th, 2013
    1:07 pm
    The nature of paganism
    Eric Scott nailed it:

    • "At Pantheacon, I discovered that I had indeed lived a different sort of life than most people in the Pagan community; but then again, so had everyone else."
    Tuesday, February 26th, 2013
    10:22 pm
    Stepping onto the Forest Path
    [I wrote the first half of this in late December 2012, then finished it in late February.  This was mostly because my job was kicking my posterior for the couple of months between.]

    I have a friend, Rowenna, who has been exploring the Ancient Order of Druids in America (AODA) for a few years now.  Last summer, we were talking about her frustration that all of the group ritual she had experienced didn’t resonate for her.  So she came up with the idea of hosting an occasional ritual for a few friends in the AODA style.  I had bought John Michael Greer’s The Druidry Handbook and The Druid Magic Handbook several years back, shortly after they were published in 2006 and 2007, but gave them just a casual read.  As Miss Rose said in The Wicker Man, “Only as a comparative religion.”  I remember thinking at the time that there was an awful lot of Ceremonialism in his Druidry.  In preparation for taking a role in my friend’s harvest ritual, I re-read The Druidry Handbook and found myself thinking that there was an awful lot of Druidry in his Ceremonialism.
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    Wednesday, January 2nd, 2013
    6:51 pm
    My ritual life
    ContraryWise Craft3721
    Little Circle on the Plain1412
    Episcopal church617
    Ancient Order of Druids in America4-

    I met all my goals for 2012--more ContraryWise and starting the Practicing Modern Pagan Witchcraft course.  My sabbatical from HOCC turned into the decision to let it go.

    In 2013, my biggest goal is to get through a couple key transitions at work.  My spiritual priorities are to complete the Practicing Modern Pagan Witchcraft course and to get off to a good start with AODA.  I'm also hoping to go to PSG this year with friends.  ("I get by with a little help from my friends.")  Once the work transitions are done, I can consider getting active in the SCA again and making it to church more often.

    The numbers above are for rituals only, not just meetings.
    Thursday, December 27th, 2012
    10:34 pm
    Ian’s Rules for Ritual Group Membership
    1. No ritual group can meet all of the spiritual needs of the members.
    2. All relationships—including ritual groups—involve communication and compromise.
    3. If one is consistently expending more effort toward a ritual group than one is receiving benefit, it is time to consider walking away.

    Lots of things, including changing from HOCC to AODA and working semi-regularly with a "pick-up band" of local Witches, are causing me to reflect what makes a ritual group work or not.

    Any suggestions for additions to the list?
    Wednesday, December 26th, 2012
    5:22 pm
    Releasing the HOCC--The End of an Era
    In 1992, I posted a reading list for Ceremonial Mysticism on the alt.magick newsgroup.  That was some of my earliest material for what was later named the Hermetic Order of the Celtic Cross (HOCC).  I continued to develop that material over the next several years, and began working with some of it privately.  In 1994, I and a few friends formed the Central Illinois Eclectic Ceremonialist Lodge (CIECL), and developed rituals for the solstices and equinoxes.  Much of that ritual material was incorporated later into the HOCC ritual.

    In May 1999, a couple years after CIECL ceased, I and two friends founded what we intended to be the first chapter of the HOCC.  A few years later, one of the two resigned membership, leaving just two of us.  Over the next several years, we continued to meet--occasionally with a guest--but we couldn't function as a chapter with fewer than three people.  In late 2009, five people--including one of our fellow members of CIECL in the 90s--expressed interest in the HOCC.  My lodgemate and I were thrilled.  Surely, five people inquiring at once indicated that we were taking off, and would soon be able to function as a chapter again.  In January of 2010, we met with them for the first time.  One of them stopped coming after a few months.  The other four continued to attend through 2010 and 2011, but no one ever took the step of performing the Dedication and becoming a member.

    At the end of 2011, I found myself dreading HOCC meetings.  I had been the motivating force keeping things going since we stopped functioning as a chapter in early 2002.  I requested that we take a sabbatical for 2012, hoping to revitalize my energy for the HOCC.  However, as the year proceeded, I realized that I wasn’t performing any HOCC work on my own, nor was I missing it.  That was my strong indicator that it might be time to let the HOCC go.  I met with my lodgemate in late September 2012 to discuss this.  While he was understandably reluctant, he acknowledged that I might be right.  We performed divination that confirmed that it was time to let it go, and that we needed to do a final ritual to release the egregore.  In November 2012, we performed that ritual.

    This continues to be difficult for me.  I’ve invested vast numbers of hours studying, performing techniques and rituals, and editing the book for HOCC.  This has been a part of my life for two decades.  I was in my mid-twenties when I started developing the HOCC material.  I began this because I was drawn to non-Cabalistic ceremonialism and the best resources I could find for that were a series of fantasy novels.  (The Deryni series by Katherine Kurtz, for the curious.)

    There will be another post in the near future about how I'm moving forward with another path, but this is important enough to me that I don't want to blur the two experiences.
    Monday, December 17th, 2012
    1:49 pm
    Eight Elemental Glyphs
    A few years back, I posted about doing Eight Element Quarter Calls in my ContraryWise work:

    I've used glyphs from Ceremonialism for the traditional four elements for years, but didn't have glyphs for the new "elements".  With a little help from my friends, we came up with those last Friday:

    Air:  Yellow circle
    Fire:  Orange equilateral triangle
    Water:  Blue heraldic crescent *(points up)
    Earth:  Green square
    Essence:  Purple circled cross
    Darkness:  Black spiral
    Light:  White awen (three lines descending)
    Magic:  Red pentagram

    edited to add:
    The circle, triangle, crescent, and square are all colored in completely, while the other four are lines of color.  And I corrected the color for the Fire triangle to orange.  I typed red because that is what I used for HOCC for years, but my current color for Fire in ContaryWise work is orange, because I've moved red to Magic.
    Friday, December 7th, 2012
    12:00 pm
    AODA color breathing
    Snippled quotes from John Michael Greer in a 2011 thread on color breathing:

    Another approach is to make color breathing a daily practice, and use the associations between the seven color rays and the seven days of the
    • Sunday -- yellow
    • Monday -- white
    • Tuesday -- red
    • Wednesday -- blue
    • Thursday -- violet
    • Friday -- green
    • Saturday -- orange

    Planetary color breathing is certainly an option. I use it in a different way; the seven elements of the Sphere of Protection ceremony are one expression of a broader system that maps the cosmos into seven Cantrefs, as they're called. These correspond to the days of the week, in a pattern that's a little odd but more or less based on the planets, and I use the Cantref system to structure my daily meditations, among other things. 

    It's a concept in the old Druid Revival correspondence course I've been piecing back together from fragments.
    Monday, September 17th, 2012
    9:50 am
    A positive one-point pagan orthodoxy
    I would like to propose a positive pagan orthdoxy:

    "Diversity is good."

    That's it.  One tenet only.  I would like this to be the primary standard by which intra-pagan ecumenicism is judged.  Let this be our ethos.
    Thursday, July 12th, 2012
    4:26 pm
    Friday, July 6th, 2012
    10:48 am
    Hestia's Helpful Hints
    • To remove soot from votive candle glasses, pour in a little bleach and fill with water.  Soak for 24 hours.  The soot can then be wiped out with a damp paper towel.
    • To remove candle wax from carpeting, set an iron on low.  Cover the area of the carpet with paper towel, and iron through the paper towel to melt the wax into the paper towel.  This can also be used on altar cloths, robes, etc.  Warning:  The dyes from colored wax will remain in the fibers--only the wax will be removed.
    Any additions from the peanut gallery?
    Friday, April 27th, 2012
    7:23 pm
    the history of LCoP
    • written in response to a message from someone in Blue Star trying to sort out the history
    • Edited a bit to incorporate info from Hermes in the comments.

    Our coven is Little Circle on the Plain (LCoP).  We have recently begun to refer to our practice as Blue Triskele Wicca, which honors our relation to Blue Star Wicca, but also reflects our most obvious difference, that we honor three deities: the Lady, the Lord, and the Revealer.

    The original Coven of the Blue Star was in Philadelphia, led by Franque and Tzip.  The first initiates with Tzip as Franque's priestess were my initiators, whose outer Craft names are Branwen and Caspian.

    Franque and Tzip moved up to New York to open their shop, Tziporah and the Wizard.  They authorized Branwen and Caspian to lead the Philly folks, but they were still part of Coven of the Blue Star, coming up to New York to circle with Franque and Tzip and any folks they added up there.  At Spring Equinox 1979, the Philly folks chose to become a separate coven from the New York folks, under the leadership of Branwen and Caspian.

    Branwen and Caspian led the Philly folks for about a year, then had to move for Branwen's work.  When they left Bridget and Hermes led the Philly folks, naming their circle Maidenhill.  The Maidenhill line continues to exist and has grown and changed over time, as we have.

    After a couple of moves, Branwen and Caspian ended up in Central Illinois.  In early 1997, I got to know Branwen and then Caspian.  They initiated me in Feb. 1998, though I had been working in another (very non-Wiccan) style of Craft for about a decade at that point.  I introduced them to a select few other folks, and the coven started in August 1998.  Branwen died in April 2005, and a couple of years later Caspian moved to be closer to his grandkids.

    I would argue that our lineage is not from the Blue Star Tradition, as there was no tradition when the Philly group separated--just the one coven that hadn't yet developed many of the characteristics of the Blue Star Tradition.  Instead, I identify our lineage as from Eddie Buczynski's American Welsh trad, which derives from NECTW.  I see LCoP, Maidenhill, and Blue Star Tradition as parallel lines--with Franque and Tzip as the initiators of all three lines--but with some real differences.
    Thursday, April 5th, 2012
    2:07 pm
    Friday, March 23rd, 2012
    3:53 pm
    Blue Triskele Wicca?
    I've been thinking of the style practiced by LCoP as "Blue Triskele Wicca" for a while now. 

    While our lineage derives from NECTW via Eddie Buczynski's Welsh Tradition, our closest lineage kin are Blue Star Wicca.  This is because our founders, Branwen and Caspian, were the first initiates by Franque and Tzip into the Coven of the Blue Star in Philadelphia, before Franque and Tzip moved to New York and started the tradition called Blue Star Wicca.  When I met a couple who had been initiated by Blue Star initiates, we discovered that the altar arrangement hadn't changed substantially--after a quarter of century of separation.  We are still influenced by the practices that Branwen and Caspian learned from Franque and Tzip.  So, we are more like Blue Star than we are like anything else anyone will have heard of.

    But we aren't Blue Star.  The core of our Book of Shadows was written by our founders after they separated from Franque and Tzip.  We don't have a degree system. We aren't interested in being a Tradition with a capital T.  If someone moves away and founds a new coven, they should change their Book of Shadows without feeling that they have to consult their upline--just as we do.  We believe that Wicca works best when it can change organically, gradually.

    Perhaps most radically, our Wicca includes three deities, not two: our Lady, our Lord, and our Revealer.  The Revealer happened to us because I am third-gender.  I didn't fit right as a priestess or as a priest.  So Branwen told me that I needed to go find a third-gender deity and bring it back to the coven.  (Unlike some of the folk in the discussions about trans-inclusion in paganism, she didn't respond "you don't fit our system, so go elsewhere and celebrate your own mysteries."  Instead, she said, "you don't fit in our system, so we need to expand our system to include you fully."  Blessed be her memory.)  So, most of a decade ago, I discovered Phanes, the bi-gender deity in the Orphic Cosmogony.  I brought back to the coven a Revealer who comes from Hellenistic mysticism, is radiant, and golden-winged.  When, a couple of years ago, our coven did a sharing about our experienced of the Revealer, I discovered that most of my covenmates worship a Revealer who reflects Northwestern European traditions, is hooded, and shrouded in mists.  That's when I knew that this had become meaningful for the coven as a whole, not just "Ian's thing".  Since that discussion, most of the initiates have stood as herald of the Revealer at least once, as a conscious way of deepening their connection.  And they also challenged me to stand as priestess of the Lady and as priest of the Lord, to help me deepen my connections with them.

    We aren't Blue Star, but we're close.  And our core is a triad of deities.  So, Blue Triskele Wicca.  I mentioned it to my covenmates for the first time last week, and people seemed to like it.  I have no idea if my covenmates will use it, but I think I may.

    Blue Triskele does that sound to you folks?
    • Edited to correct spelling.
    Friday, March 2nd, 2012
    3:02 pm
    A linguistic quibble: "to libate" can only correctly be used for liquids, as the Latin word means "to pour as an offering".
    Thursday, March 1st, 2012
    12:14 pm
    "thingums" is an ancient Witchcraft term for ritual tools, candles, oils, herbs, offerings, jewelry, statues, altar cloths, robes, and any other material objects.

    It's probably Ye Olde Celtic or Old High Gallifreyan in origin.

    Monday, February 13th, 2012
    3:08 pm
    pentagram and pentacle origins
    Someone asked about the origins of the pentacle symbol in nonwiccanwitch.  This is what I wrote:

    You will find more information if you look for "pentagram" than "pentacle". If I remember correctly, John Michael Greer has a decent entry on the pentagram in his The New Encyclopedia of the Occult.

    The pentagram (not necessarily encircled) entered the Western esoteric tradition through the Ancient Greek Pythagoreans, who associated it with health. Since then, it has primarily been associated with magic--primarily power and protection. During the Christian centuries, it was generally perceived as a Christian symbol (as you just discovered) because that was their context. It was *never* associated with pagan religion until the latter part of the 20th century, and then only because British Traditional Wicca--and then other forms of Modern Pagan Witchcraft--took it from Ceremonial Magic.

    Pentacle, on the other hand, derived from a French phrase for "hung from the neck" and was used for *any* pendant containing a sigil or similar design in ritual magic evocations. The Golden Dawn extended the use to refer to one of their elemental tools: a disc displaying a hexagram against a background divided in quarters, each quarter in the color of one of the four elements in the sphere of Malkuth. (They used the alternate term "lamen" to describe ritual pendants.)

    The use of "pentacle" for a pendant or altar object prominently displaying a pentagram (almost always encircled) appears to have arisen within Modern Pagan Witchcraft in the latter part of the 20th century. As far as I can tell, it was a conflation of 1) the ritual use of pentagrams inscribed in the air at the quarters in British Traditional Wicca; 2) the mention of "pentacles" for objects inscribed with sigils in the Gardnerian First Degree Initiation Ritual; and 3) the use of "pentacles" as a title in the Rider-Waite Tarot for the suit of discs or coins, showing discs displaying an encircled pentagram. I am unclear if this conflation began in BTW and migrate outward, or began in Wiccan-derived Craft and was later used in BTW.

    It is my strongly held opinion that, as the pentagram was historically associated with magic rather than pagan religion, the pentacle symbol should only be used as a religious symbol within Modern Pagan Witchcraft.  Other pagans are strongly encouraged to use a symbol relevant to *your* paganism.  (E.g.: a triskell or triquetra for Celtic pagans or a Thor's hammer for heathens.)
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